Hi, hello.

So I didn’t write this newsletter last week.

I wanted to, however, I was a woman down.

Truthfully, I was going through it.

BIG TIME.

Many founders don’t necessarily admit it, but we have our ups and downs too.

We encounter fear, self-doubt, unworthiness….all the things.

Something I don’t always share so openly is my struggle with anxiety.

There are various reasons why from complex trauma in my childhood to poor choices in my twenties.

(Yes, those late-night sales “conferences” of binge drinking in Vegas to blend in caught up with me.)

And these past four and half years I have dived deep into my healing and I have come such a long way…

I’m proud of myself.

However, entrepreneurship is a whole other beast.

This past March, I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to continue with Higher Energy.

I mean I wanted to of course.

But…

I exhausted my savings.

I exhausted my investments.

I didn’t have enough money to pay my rent.

I was at a crossroads.

My old job at Autodesk even came up for hire (Autodesk is a great company btw.)

You see when I got laid off in 2022 from Ada, I reinvested everything I had back into myself.

From hiring a coach to obtaining certifications and attending healing retreats I spent over 45K in personal development.

Plus, let’s not forget I founded a company.

I spent my last dollars going to Turkey in September for my Neo Emotional Release Therapy training.

And truthfully, I’ve been living on the EDGE ever since.

I feel alive more than ever.

But shit, is it scary.

So this past weekend, I had the most intense anxiety/panic attack of my life to date.

You know what I realized…

1. Anxiety sucks

2. Anxiety is not the problem, it’s our relationship to it.

My anxiety has over the years transformed night and day.

And up until this year, I thought I had conquered it.

However, it came creeping up and out of nowhere I was paralyzed with fear.

So what did I do?

Well, being that I am a lot more educated and informed on what anxiety is — I decided to face it.

(Anxiety is a response to the emotion of fear.)

I got on my breathwork mat and for four-six hours straight I allowed and welcomed the emotion of fear to encapsulate my entire being.

I chose not to be afraid of my fear.

I chose to surrender to it.

I chose to become it.

Because fear can teach us a lot.

And after hours of breathing, it finally subsided.

You see NO one in my lineage has ever started a business or followed their dreams.

I come from a very conditioned past of fear, scarcity and separation that has been passed down for generations.

So the idea of ME becoming WHO I AM scares the living shit out of my nervous system.

And the nervous system is designed to keep us safe, and alive.

So the idea of expansion, becoming more than what my NS knows is a huge stretch.

So, therefore, ANXIETY.

My mind can’t form safety in entrepreneurship because the mind operates in a familiar past which creates the emotion of fear based on a limited belief.

“I’m not good enough.”

Bingo.

But guess what?

My heart knows the way.

The intelligence that is within me knows the way.

And the intelligence in you knows the way as well.

But so many of us limit ourselves on what we can co-create in life because of fear.

And it paralyzes us.

As I said above, it’s not anxiety that is the problem it’s our relationship to it.

So many of us are terrified of our anxiety.

Many of you are self-medicating.

Many of you are distracting yourselves from feeling anxiety.

Many of you are lost in the sauce when it comes to anxiety.

Trust me, I get it.

That is until I discovered Breathwork and Somatic Healing.

I mean, I left my 200K/year corporate job to share this stuff with you humans.

(Well for facts, I was laid off but I know in my heart it was because I was destined for more)

It’s not fluff.

Breathwork and Neo Emotional Release helped me transform my relationship with anxiety by having tools and practices that helped me self-regulate and build emotional resilience.

When you’re on the edge of a breakthrough/expansion it’s so important to stay the course, trust yourself and regulate your nervous system as much as possible.

The nervous system at times needs time and patience to expand the window of safety.

Our window is safety is unique based on our upbringing and environment.

I truly believe my anxiety is a reminder that I am human and it serves as a lesson that I can share with all of you.

This brings me a lot of gratitude and humbleness which I believe are the key ingredients in serving the collective.

The moral of the story?

Do not let anxiety scare you.

It’s simply there to remind you of your humanness, your ability to feel fear is the capacity at which you can feel joy.

SO feel the fear and BE it anyway.

I am so happy to share that this month we had our record-breaking month in the history of Higher Energy.

Though, I have quite the journey ahead I am so thankful for this community and the opportunity to share my story with you.

Are you inspired by this read + curious about how to regulate anxiety and become a coherent self-leader?

Here’s how I can help you.

• Book a 1:1 human connection call (we can map out what is working vs what is not)
• Apply for my four-month Awareness to Expansion Breathwork Coaching program here
• Schedule a 60-min coaching/breathwork session
• Download our free guided breathwork track

Keep breathing,

Kindra Fox, Founder

Higher Energy